It's the most wonderful time of the year

 Today is Christmas Eve, Eve.. Sounds funny when you say that out loud.. Seems weird to be saying it all, actually. It seems like just yesterday we were preparing for the upcoming holidays, but it wasn't this close. The hustle and all that goes into making it a great holiday seems to go by so fast. Holiday parties, buying presents, decorating trees, then in a flash the holidays are over.

Time seems to move by so much faster the older I get. When I was a child it seemed like FOREVER for Christmas to come, and now I keep saying, it's almost Christmas? Where does all of that time go? I remember as a child hearing, Don't grow up too fast, and all I could think of was wanting to grow up fast. It's funny how that happens.. Now, as an adult I hope for more days in a week so that I can get everything done. This week has already flown by, when just last week, I thought I could get everything accomplished this week. Time just always seems to run out..

Finishing up my first round of edits was harder than I thought. I had wanted to be done with them before the winter break came. It happened, but it was a struggle. Writing seems to come more natural to me than actually speaking to others. (I do talk to people, and can be quiet friendly) But, I find writing everything out just seems to go smoother. (Haha, because most of the time I don't have to worry about saying the wrong thing) It lets me get everything off my mind that I feel I can't say aloud. I am sure that I do say many things I shouldn't say aloud, but writing down your thoughts seems to be such an easier task.

When I was a teenager I would write about the holidays, just for myself, everything I had hoped would happen and everything I had wished for would all come magically, on Christmas. Many years, it wasn't about gifts, it was about peace. Peace within myself, peace for my relationship with my parents, and peace within my heart.

Now, I find that writing about the holidays seems to be about making sure that my children are happy, and that they have peace.

Every year is different, last year, I was preparing for what had been one of the worst years of my life to just move on into the new year.. This year I am not waiting for the new year, I am enjoying the every day life.

As the holidays will soon be over I wanted to take a minute and reflect on everything wonderful about the holidays. The food, the family, the friends, and the love. It's my favorite time of the year, and I hope that you have found peace this year too. Remember, it's not always about what's under the tree, but what's in your heart that makes all the magic seem so real.

I wish every one of you a very Happy Holiday! Peace, Love, and all that Jazz- Dee

To each their own..

            I read different types of blogs all the time, and I know mine is very different. That's the part I pride myself on. I wanted to be unique. Let's be real for a moment shall we?

There is a blog for everything. A blog for religions, music, books, even funny videos. I started writing in this blog almost a year ago, just to share common things with every day people. Of course, I wanted to talk about books, but I found that blogging was almost like journal writing. I could just write about whatever came to mind at the time. I also thought that was the point to blog. Then I found that the more I shared the more people were living the same kind of life. I assume most people think authors are rich and or just crazy. I am not one of those things. Rich. Yep, I am crazy, but not rich. Hahaha.

Your probably wondering why am I even discussing this, and here is the reason. Because of all of you, I stay encouraged to be real. To be myself, to discuss random bull s**t with others. I guess you could say, we all know that everyone's lives aren't  peaches and cream. I know mine is not. There are days that are just bad. There are days that are fantastic. Then there are days in between. That's how I see life. Every day isn't going to be some marvelous day that we just need to share with the world. Nope, that's not going to happen.

My thoughts were that I would just say that it's okay that days aren't always great. We need to remember the good days in between. Taking a little time for us to breathe, to catch our breath, take the time. Take time for yourself, take time to share your love with others. Everyone needs a moment to reflect, and everyone needs to know that they aren't alone. Some days we will feel alone. This is normal. You are alone at times. That's okay too.

Today, my mind is focused on something, I didn't think it would. I have a big decision to make, and my fear is if I do one thing I will lose who I am, if I don't do it, I may never know. We all have to make hard choices in our lives, even on the days we seem to think are random.

You just never know what opportunity will be knocking on your door, if you always searching for something. Finding yourself, in the bore of every day life, then someone knocks and you are left with a decision.

I am encouraged by all of you, knowing that I can do anything I put my heart and soul into. Even on the boring days, it's still a day I woke up, and am alive.
Try to remember on the random days, that this is life. That we are alive, and today may not be so boring after all.

-Dee-