It's been crazy...

It always seems that the first of the year is crazy for me. Trying to get back into the swing of things, seems to be a little bit of a harder task then I had imagined.

I often sit back and wonder why I even bother doing this.. Why do I write on a blog, a book, a page, etc.. when I feel like I may never have anything to accomplish by doing those things. It's the little insecure thoughts that race through my mind, telling me.. I'm no good, give up.

But, I won't. I fought to be here today, and have been fighting for myself for a long time. It was never about what I could accomplish for others, but for myself. We all go through times in our lives when we may not feel like we are worthy. You may even be feeling how I feel at times, but don't pay attention to all the drama. Believe in yourself, is the only motto I can chant. If I don't believe in myself, then who is going too? It starts with one purpose, one goal, and you build to that goal to follow your dreams.

Did I ever think I would be a best selling author? No way!
Did I ever think that people would listen or read my words of random bullshit? Nope.
Did I do all this because I wanted to do it for myself? Hell Yes!

It doesn't matter how many times I get knocked down, I keep getting back up. I have too. Quitting was never the option, even when I really felt like I should. That's not who I am, and nor do I want to be.

Blogging for me seems to be more about an open letter to others. What I like, what I hate, trying to stay positive.. I read the other day how I am supposed to run a blog to make it successful, etc.. BUT I felt like that's not what I wanted. It was never going to be like that for me. I just wanted to share my thoughts, and ideas, and maybe even, share my dreams with the world. It never will be about the fame, the money (there is none lol) and or the title that goes along with being an author. I just wanted to find myself through this journey.

Everyone needs a little push sometimes, everyone needs to be reminded that they are loved. (I know I certainly do.) That's why I started blogging and called it randomness. Hearing about my books may not be that exciting, reading about the music I love, may be exhausting.. But every now and then I want to remind others that they are not alone in their fight for their dreams. When you feel defeated, you should know, that someone else is in your corner. I am always going to PUSH for people to know they have a purpose, that they are cared for.. That's just something I feel I gotta do.

So, if you are feeling like you are taking one step forward and two steps back, don't fret, I understand your feelings. In the end, we all just have to keep pushing. Pushing ourselves to be better, to keep working towards our goals, to keep climbing up that mountain, whatever the cost!

(P.S. I've got your back when you need someone in your corner!)

I shall leave you with some random words of wisdom...

It's not about the who, the where, the why, it's about how high you want to go. Climb that mountain, slay that beast, be positive that you can do anything.

Peace, Love, and all that Jazz- Dee

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I find that at times we are the ones who have to remember this. 

Remember that we are strong.

Remember that you can achieve any goal you have.

You will always have a fan.

If in this life if you find yourself doubting what you have accomplished, don't.

YOU are wonderful just the way you are!

Keep positive, and know that you can do this!

DREAM BIG!

-Dee-

Sneaky, sneaky..

              For the first time I didn't tell anyone what I was doing. I had wanted a change, but then I didn't. I wanted the cover for Enchanted Legacy to be awesome. Which, I loved the cover of at first. As time grew closer for me to really put forth the effort into publishing the next book, the cover haunted me. So many problems with the first one, that I was scared. I printed the cover out just to see what it looked like, in my own hands, and it fell short for me. I tried to find the person who had originally made the picture, but to no avail. Then you get caught up with the fact of being sued for not giving credit to the photographer or person who made the picture. (Somewhere I had wrote down all this information, and now it is gone.) I searched the internet for what seemed to be days, but then I gave up. I wasn't loving the cover anymore anyways, so why not make a new one. (This task is harder than it seems. Kudos to photographers and graphic designers! You are AWESOME!) Anyhow, that lead me to the past couple of days. Searching, and searching for what could I possibly do with the cover now. I had wanted the cover to say so many things, but then again, not give away the story. I kept going back to a picture of a girl. Not a model, just a girl. She had beautiful eyes, and I felt like she captured what Bridget (main character) was about to go through. This story has been a great one to write. I found myself writing about characters whom I grew to love. For one, I loved writing Van. He is my gay character. I know. I took a big step into a world, I don't really know, but I loved him. I enjoyed telling my side of Romeo and Juliet. A tragic love story that NEVER ended the way anyone wanted it to end. I wanted to tell a paranormal, dark, romantic story, with love for all. A story about believing in one self. That's the hope with this book. It's time for me to reveal the final cover. No more mind changing ideas, just me and you checking out the new book. What's the big deal, right?

Alright, so without further ado, I give you the new COVER for Enchanted Legacy.